I am up too early with too much on my mind and heart. I think I don't have enough down-time during the day to process the things that need processing, so I just wake up extra early to do the processing. Ha. But I would much rather be sleeping than processing. :-)
Here are the highlights of the things that are bothering me:
-Being single. It has become OLD really quick.
-Questioning, once again, my career path
-Wishing, once again, I didn't have to be thinking about a career path.
-The nature of addiction. The harm, destruction. The pull on my heart about it all the time.
-My children using bad language they did NOT hear from me
-The depths of love a mama has for her babies, even if they say bad words.
-Loss. Always loss.
-The unfathomable, Almighty God
-Being much too fat
-Having to attend FIVE hockey games this weekend. Love my little hockey player, but in the words of one of my hockey mom friends, "Is the season over yet?"
-Laundry. Oh dear, the laundry I have to do. Thinking about it makes me cry.
-The pain my friends are going through.
-The Church. Jesus's bride. Why is she so complicated??? How can he love her when she so often spends her time on everything BUT him?
-All sorts of sickness
Okay. That's enough. I do feel somewhat better now. Just making this list. :-) Maybe I can sleep for 1/2 hour more before it's off to hockey game #1! Go team!
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Posted by Brenda at 7:16 AM