Monday, February 15, 2010


Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my light

Riches I heed not nor man's emptly praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and thou only first in my heart
High King of heaven my treasure Thou are

The first time I heard this beautiful song it was on Ginny Owens' CD. You can listen to it here. (There are more beautiful verses, but these are the two she sings). She didn't write the song... it's an old hymn, but she is blind, so it has extra meaning. She definitely walks by faith and not by sight. But I wonder if I do the same.

Right now I feel very burdened with things I don't know how to explain to myself in any ways that make sense... people bringing guns to the places my child and husband spend their days and shooting other people to death, the death of my friend's father from cancer when her mother is in the early stages of Alzheimers, a friend and her baby going through a divorce, a sweet dog running lost through the cold snow, whimpering when I petted him, my young cousin with a sweet baby, fighting for her life, waiting for a kidney, people on a poor island who have nothing to lose, losing everything in an earthquake....

I feel the weight of these things.... see Satan's hand in the world... feel helpless. And if I keep walking by sight, I will crumble under the weight.

I need God to open my eyes... to remind me he is working all of this for the good of those who love Him... that while I can't understand everything, some day I will and I will bow down and praise the God who rescued me. I need to see, by faith, the armies all around me, fighting FOR me and not just the enemies fighting against me. I pray God will be my vision. He is definitely my best thought every day. Definitely my treasure.

Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law. Ps. 119:18


Lisa notes... said...

A very poignant post. Thanks for putting those thoughts into such beautiful words. (And Ginny Owen's version of this song is my favorite one.)

One way I have "seen" God fighting for me is through YOU and your sweet gifts and words and scriptures and prayers you've given me.

Brenda said...

I came on here this morning to DELETE this post, feeling weird about posting it.... it's not like me to get depressed and then share it with the whole world. But since you commented, Lisa, I'll leave it. :-) Not just because you said good things about me, either. Ha.

Kristy said...

I have always loved that song.

I get the same way often. Thinking of those hurting around me, it is hard to make sense of it.

What sweet words from Lisa!

Praise God that He continues to draw us closer to Him - through the trials. Yes, that He and He only would be first in my heart..